In the last post, we looked within to try and get an idea of a root cause for our individual madness. We looked at how our individual search for something “out there” led to a collective, societal blind march towards progress. And we know full well that by marching along blindly we are heading towards an ultimate destruction.
When we, as individuals, understand that we need to stop this insanity, we are faced with a question.
“How exactly can I stop humanity from destroying itself, including me and what I love?”
We realise that there is something we need to do, and our first reaction is by being driven into action.
“Let’s get out there and protest and become environmentally conscious and recycle and educate for change and chain ourselves to trees and stop whaling and…and…and…!!!!”
We want to make yet another change to the World, and make society see things the way we do because, of course, the way we see things is right (we believe).
And let’s say, hypothetically, that we succeed. We are able to indoctrinate everyone on this planet with a new way of living in which we do not harm the planet, live in a sustainable way, exist within a state of World peace and bring about a kinship of humankind. What if life on Earth became like the John Lennon song “Imagine”, whereby we created a utopic heaven upon Earth?
Great isn’t it? Enjoy that thought for a moment.
But then what?
Here comes the issue – we are still carrying the seed within us that led to the crisis in the first place. Hence that seed will once again grow into the monster that we initially created. Our utopia will very shortly once more start to turn into hell.
Someone will become jealous of what another has and start to covet it, and will chase it. Disagreements will begin, they may divide into factions that turn against each other. Politics will come forth, manipulative people will once more be able to take advantage of the situation to run their agenda over others.
Pretty soon, you and your like-minded, well intentioned friends will be marginalised. Fear and greed will once more rule the World.
Welcome to heaven – it only exists in our minds!
You can’t keep dancing with the devil and ask why you’re still in hell.
As long as we still carry our unconscious fear around with us, the outer circumstances will always reflect that inner state of confusion, chaos, separation and greed. The outer is only but a reflection of the inner.
We are not ready for heaven yet. If we were, we would already be in it.
So if we really want to make any significant and lasting change in this World, we need to start with inner change; with inner transformation at an individual level.
There is NO OTHER WAY.
That root cause of fear inside us all, the belief that states “I am not enough”, causes us to tear through life blindly forever searching for something to fill the vacuum that this belief creates.
We move from one goal to the next, from one desire to the next, snatching the few moments of satisfaction that we can whenever one of our needs or wants is fulfilled.
But really, this is to no avail. We shall be chasing our tails into our graves. The end result is the end.
We feel we can answer the question “Why am I not enough?” with a constant drive for more and more, for progress on progress, for something else out there which will be “enough”.
Something inside us, a small, nearly silent voice that sometimes whispers in our heads, knows the truth that we are desperate to ignore.
It knows that enough is never enough.
Now this enquiry leaves us facing a dead end. We know we are not going to get answers from looking at the outside World, nor from chasing it’s bounties. We realise that making others change is futile, unless we first transform ourselves into that which we need to be.
We are certain that we need to be free of the fear that cripples our society, and that the spawn of this fear lives inside each one of us as a primal fear, and unconsciously directs our thoughts and actions.
But how do we start, and what do we do? How can we be free of fear?
The first thing to look into is what fear is. We all know the feeling of fear, we know what it feels like to be scared, or even terrified. We know that fear manifests in fearful, negative thinking, a tightness and tense feeling in the body, the initiation of our biological fight or flight response and a whole host of other things.
Fear is designed to protect us. Our ancestors were extremely fearful, after all they lived half-naked and unprotected in forests as the potential prey of a host of predators that they shared the land with. Fear is hard-wired into our make up, to protect us and keep us safe. We are always on the lookout for what could harm us and our families, and devise ways and means to keep us safe. Survival is our number one instinct and the first priority.
However, in this day and age, we don’t need to be so fearful all the time. We can spend a vast majority of our lives in relative safety, and our lives are immeasurably safer than our ancestor’s lives were. But because we are hard-wired for this fear, because it is automatic and because we have a biological bias to be fearful, we tend to carry fear with us much more than we need.
The slightest thing going wrong can trigger our fear and cause us to spiral out of control with imaginary worst-case scenarios which breed the associated feelings of tension and stress.
Our reaction is, more often than not, hugely out of proportion to the perceived danger. We could be feeling the same amount of stress about our Boss finding out that we have not made a deadline as our ancestors would have felt being trapped in a tree for the night while a predatory animal paced the ground underneath waiting for them to fall.
As a society of out and out over thinkers, we create an inordinate amount of fear in our lives through imaginary scenarios, and then live as slaves to this fear.
Fear, in itself, has no reality outside the mind. Most of our fears are imagined.
We are so busy living our lives as innocent victims to these secondary fears, that we do not discern the need to look into the truth behind our primal fear.
Why am I not enough? Or rather, why do I feel or believe that I am not enough?
Our primal fear causes our minds to spew out countless other fears with which to keep ourselves busy. This is all illusory. It is not real. Our actions (and hence our lives) are based upon our reliance that the fears we are driven by are real. They are not. They are all children of a discomfort in our minds which causes us to create a tornado of multiple fears from the primal fear and sweeps us into a life of searching for satisfaction from the outside World.
If we can get some clarity for a few minutes, and put aside all our multiple fears. Let’s focus on the primal fear and not get distracted by anything else.
The mind may try to bait us to follow it into other avenues of thought, other fearful roads. But if we can stay focused, the next layer of the mystery unfurls itself.
It takes a level of awareness to receive the next key to the mystery of existence. This may not appear as words, it is often a feeling – an intuition. A knowing.
“I am not enough because I am separate”
You see, we have this belief that we are separate from existence. That existence is out there, and that we are experiencing it from “in here”. And this is quite verifiable as a point of view. I can see you “out there”, and I hear you “in here”. I am separate from you. I am separate from the World. I am a separate entity that is here on this Earth, spinning somewhere in the Universe. And as a separate entity, I am vulnerable.
So how do I make myself stronger?
I need to feel secure. And I can only get things from “out there” to add to myself to make me feel less vulnerable.
I need more things, I need more security, I need a roof over my head, no a house, no a big mansion. I need things in my life to make me feel safe and to make me feel good.
We dupe ourselves into joining the rat race and becoming part of the juggernaut we have created.
And don’t think there are those who are immune to this fear. The people who go after the most, who want the most power and influence and control, are the ones who are most in denial. They are the ones who are the most attached to the illusion and do not want to consider any alternate. The people in power are the ones who benefit the most from the state of affairs on our planet, it is in their interest to keep the illusion alive at any cost. They are the most driven by this unconscious fear, and would even kill to keep it alive.
The lunatics are running the asylum.
By now, we all see the far reaching consequences of believing our first primal fear. What we need to know and understand is whether this fear really is true, and why we believe it. It seems to be true, as we all seem separate. But if it is true, then there is no hope for us, because we will drive ourselves to extinction.
Something is not right, and something needs to be done.
We will dive into this in the next post. For now, some “food for thought“.